This afternoon is the dreaded home visit for our adoption. The one piece of the whole process that I have been the most anxious for. In one sense, I am nervous, however, I am also somewhat relieved that it is finally here and (almost!) over.
Already, it has been an interesting day. I can sense a mixture of panic and weariness setting in. I went to bed late (my fault!!), was awoken a couple times throughout the night, woke in the morning to a child who is not feeling well and there is a list of last-minute things that need to get done. On top of all that, I have a big three-day practicum for homeschooling on Wednesday, Thursday and Friday of this week that I need to prepare a little for. I've already had to resign to the fact that a couple of my home projects that I wanted to get done before today just will not get done. And it will have to be ok.
Some verses that are particularly helping me today:
"For God did not give me a spirit of fear, but of power, and love and a sound mind."
2 Timothy 1:7
"Rejoice in the Lord always, I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. DO NOT BE ANXIOUS ABOUT ANYTHING, but in prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. Finally brothers, whatever is true.....think about such things."
"I can do everything through Him who gives me strength."
"If God is for us, who can be against us?"
I have said it before, the most important thing you can do for us in support of this whole adoption process, is to pray for us. Nothing of value can be done apart from prayer. We know that. Yet it is always so tempting to fall back on the flesh and to think that we are actually in control. Pray that we would sense God's hand on us today as we prepare our home and our hearts. Pray that His perfect love would drive out all fear (1 John 4:18). Thank you all so much!!